Changes

Do you ever feel like everything is changing? do you ever feel that nothing will ever be the same? do you ever feel like your drowning and there's no one to save? do you ever feel like going somewhere far far away and never returning back?
Yes, i do. i feel all of these things because its true, neither do people stay the same nor the feelings. Everyday i wake up and wonder, if everything remained constant, could i have been happy? but right then reality kicks in and says nothing stays forever. Think about it.
Those happy couples who vow to always be together through the good and the bad, do they stick to it? Your own friends would turn their backs on you when you need them the most. So isn't everything changing in seconds?even though we all wish, everyday, to be happy, to get what we desire, but deep inside we know how little the chances are. Time passes but you still seem to be stuck there, right there. Why?
We all have learned to smile even when we are dying inside. We smile everyday, convincing our self it'll all be fine. But when is the fine coming? You keep faith and reassure yourself , things will go back to normal but is that enough? Don't we all need someone to stay by our side? Just one person could make you so happy, right? But at the end of the day, we are left alone, we feel like that left out kid in the parties. But still we smile.

The Perfect girl...

I was bored :P So I wrote this...


One moment she was there, the next she wasnt. I blinked thrice in a second, rubbing my eyes in disbelief. As i sat on my window looking down at the dark, yellow lane that followed into the forest. At first I thought I was dreaming but then I saw her standing there smiling, waving at me. But was she waving at me? I looked around, my eyes searching in desperation, but there wasn't anybody which meant she was waving at me.

My heart rushed inside me and hesitatingly I waved back, gulping the whole of my milk at once. I guess being home alone isn't as fun as I thought. The girl walked towards my house taking baby steps. My palms filled with sweat and a sense of danger rushed down me, before I could move, the bell rang ting tong... Should I open the door or no? Decision, sat on my shoulders.

Then finally I opened the door, there she stood with the blue caucasian eyes, perfect blonde hair and petite body. There was not a girl more perfect than her, my eyes had ever seen. Beautiful was not even the word to describe her, she smiled showing her perfectly shining teeth. "Hey, I'm Samantha, the thing is that my car broke down and I have no battery to turn on the heater, can I stay over tonight? please I will leave by morning," Samantha said with innocent eyes.

"Yeah sure, I'm Ammy," I said hesitatingly, trying to fill my lungs with air, as I had no other choice.

Samantha entered carefully, observing everything around,praising my house. "There is a guest room next to mine, if you need anything just knock at my door," I said smiling and followed her up the stairs watching her every move.

I went to my room leaving the door opened and the side lamp on, the weight on my eye lids were too much to keep awake, i slept instantly. There was a knock at my door, I woke up almost falling off the bed. Samantha stood there staring at me. I shivered with fear and as I blinked I saw her walking down the stairs. I followed her and she opened the door and went out. I ran behind her to look for where she was going but then it was like nobody was ever there. My voice was stuck in my troath and my eyes wide open! I stood there all alone on the quite street with the flickering street lamps.

Who was she? What did she want? Where did she go? Was she human? ...

Memories! 

I hold on to memories because at the end of the day they make me smile...
When sometimes things aren't perfect, the days when you just want to bury your head and cry for endless hours. Those are the times my head full of memories helps me, they give me a reason to smile, to forget things, to think about the better...
But sometimes things just don't go your way, You lose people you love, You lose meaning to your life. That moment you are willing to do anything to get back the happy days, to get back the memories. Its not as easy as it is said, The pain is forever, you're scarred for life.
They say time heals all, but in reality it doesn't,  you just learn to live with the pain. You try your best to bury it deep down inside your lane of memories.
Its been 10 months and I'm still not over you! and they say time heals all, it doesn't. Our memories are still alive inside me and everytime I see your face I smile because you gave me the meaning to life I always searched for. The memories we created have helped me come this far and helped me to keep going on.
 Now you're gone, maybe you're never coming back, still I just wish every second of my life to spend it by your side! I loved you and always will! <3

Heavy Rains....

Rains- you can never stop loving them! :P

I am sitting in my room with my Hot Coffee admiring the Cold Rains... (even though i hate getting wet in them, makes me feel disgusting)
They say the definition of rain is-'The condensed moisture of the atmosphere falling visibly in separate drops,' 
But i don't think so!  How do you feel when the first drop of rain falls right on your face? you end up screaming aloud "Oh my God, Its raining!" the happiness inside you is just beyond words. Soon you can see children running around with joy and splashing around in puddles. 
On the other side you might see a girl walking with an umbrella trying to hide her tears and pain with the help of rain. also you might see two people, completely in love with each other, laughing and blushing. 
So basically i feel rain means a way to express your feelings nobody cares if two clouds clash for rains but all they care about is the joy they get and the pain they can hide! <3

New Beginnings!

So today was a new day! A new start nobody knows what might happen, but we all hope for the best!

 I wake up every morning thinking to myself, Is this what I thought my life would be? The dilemma of Yes and No always takes my mind on a roller coaster. We all are humans, so different and unique from each other. But we still stay together in unity because we have learned to adapt and understand! 
We all have those days where nobody seems to listen to our inner voice and times when people just walk past you. But we stay strong and hold on! After every fall there is a rise
This world might be an ugly place to live in, but I have made it beautiful in my own way, ignoring things I needed to! 
Deep inside you may feel like you're worthless but always remember a smile on your face and your hand on your hip, can sure make things right. Remember, you're one of a kind! :D 

Just Stay Strong and Believe In Yourself!